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Disclaimer: Not Pregnant

Wow, there was a whole lot of silence from me these past few months and I just kinda felt the need to check in with you all!  I've gotten some messages asking if things are okay -- they are!  We're good!

No.  I'm not pregnant.

But ohmygosh you guys, I often feel so damn tired after chasing Charlie around that I sometimes feel like I'm first-trimester-tired.  You know the kind.  Barely awake past 8:30; falling asleep in your toddler's (albeit full-sized) bed and not waking up until 6am and realizing what you've done.  Yep.




But we do have some news on the baby front... kind of... not really.  Okay, so we don't really have news per se, I feel like that somehow indicates we're pregnant.  What we're doing is going to meet with an RE here in Wisconsin and making a game plan for when we can do an FET (frozen embryo transfer).  We have 4 embabies frozen in Chicago waiting on us to get our poop in a group and bring them home!  :)
This kid is ready for a baby.  She's obsessed.

Our appointment is next Monday and I'm hoping for good news.  I'm hoping that for once in my life, something can be simple, though I recognize this is often not the path I'm meant to be on.  I'll keep you updated as much as I can, but please know that we're trying.  It's just that when normal folks "try" it just involves them.  Our version of trying requires medical intervention that comes at a price and requires a ridiculous number of tests and medications.  Thankfully, we don't have to do IVF again, we can work with what we have.  Can you imagine 5 Charlottes?

Shit, now I'm really tired.  ;)

We are so thankful that we've had 2 1/2 years with this bug and we're ready to move forward and get back to the no-sleep routine.  Our hearts are ready and we're open to the adventure, however challenging or long (or short!) it may be.  Ultimately, if we cannot find success with our 4 embryos, we will have to regroup and decide if we're meant to be a family of 3 or if we want to consider another round of IVF but we're not there yet.

Send me your positive thoughts!
xo
Mama Porch

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  1. Wishing you the best of luck!! My little one is just 15 months so I can't even fathom going after our remaining embryos just yet but I am thinking maybe by the time he is two or something like that. As you said, chasing after them is super tiring! haha

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