what... what is this? is this free time? what do i do?!

On the weeks that I close, I get to take Charlie to school for drop-off. But then there's about an hour between when I get home & when I have to be at work. It's a weird feeling. I feel slightly lost because an hour is a lot of time, but seemingly not enough time to feel able to dig in & get started on something meaningful. I'm also wondering what it would be like to have a day *off* from work and not have C here with me; this has never happened before and I already feel anxious just thinking about all that time alone. I need to find more staff at work and get things going before I take a day off, but this knowledge that it's possible is exciting.

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