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parental angst

today i had my baseline ultrasound and my uterine lining is still too thick; they are threatening to cancel the FET cycle and put me back on the birth control for another month. i feel like i'm hitting road block after road block. it is so frustrating to be so close and to have something like this set me back. it's literally out of my control how thick the lining of my uterus is - listen, i never envisioned myself to be sitting here, casually chattin' about my reproductive organs and their happenings, but here we are... what a tuesday, amirite?!

i have to wait and if there is no additional bleeding, the cycle is over & i am back to the pill. if there's any kind of hope in the form of bleeding, i have a repeat ultrasound on friday. i am all about hope but i am struggling to keep a grip on it today. 

speaking of situations that remind you of your need to get a grip, i registered bug for 4k today.  yep. my kid is going to public school in like 20 days and i just accepted this reality today and finally took the leap to register her. she's academically more than ready and socially pretty well-adjusted. i simply found myself grasping for reasons to keep her with me just one more year.  now i've got days. 

so i guess you could say i'm feeling a little angsty today.

cheers,
me
(#blessed)
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