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Finding a nugget of peace

Remember when I promised to stop Googling stuff?  Turns out I shouldn't have!  I got two confirmation calls yesterday for my appointments scheduled for today.  Blood work and ultrasound in the morning, HSG in the afternoon.  Yes.  Check.  Ready.  But then this nurse started talking about anesthesia and recovery and I was left feeling a touch confused about what she thought she was prepping me for... because this sounded pretty over the top for an HSG.  So when I got to the office this morning for my first appointment, I asked.  They looked at me like I was insane when I mentioned that I was told not to eat and that I would have anesthesia.  This prompted their check-in with the surgical center and wouldn't you know -- they were prepping me for the wrong surgery; they thought I was having two procedures done.  I spent a lot of time online last night researching HSG and am so thankful that I spoke up and tried to get more answers.  So no HSG for me today.  We're expecting to have the opportunity to have it done early next week.  

While this is obviously an unexpected hiccup, I am so thankful that I let myself follow my instinct and Google to learn more and that I had the ability to speak up and ask questions.  Most importantly, I am thankful that the staff at Dr. TK's office acknowledged my concerns and helped me follow up.  

Yeah, it kinda sucks that I took the whole day off but I got so much work done today!  I did a lot of work for the center and even got my homework done for Monday.  But the most exciting task of today?  Getting ready for fall and our guests this weekend!  My mom and dad are coming to visit us this weekend to celebrate my 30th birthday a little bit early since on my actual birthday, we'll be in Wisconsin at Oktoberfest.  Sometimes while Porch is at work, I like to do the things I might otherwise be outwardly judged for in his presence.  Like putting up fall decor on September 19th though now that I type that date, it seems more acceptable than not.  Either way -- fall is my favorite time of year and I am pumped about all that's going on this fall.  We have a full calendar and are excited to celebrate many things with loved ones... Oktoberfest, birthdays, and several fall weddings!  I love love.

Mmmmm yeah.... might have busted out the pumpkins and fall decor today.
Sorry Porch!


xoxo
  
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