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Colliding forces

Tomorrow is a big big day for me both personally and professionally.  When I lay my head down tomorrow night, I will have undergone two huge processes.

I plan to arrive to the center tomorrow morning bright and early before we open to ensure things are in order for our NAEYC assessor who will be there to conduct our site visit.  This is the technical culmination of our one-year process of reflection.  It's overwhelming and I am so glad this will be done before we go away for the weekend.

Personally, I will have my HSG done tomorrow afternoon.  I need to be there by 3:30 so I plan to leave as soon as the NAEYC visit is complete.  I'm hoping that Dr. TK will be able to tell us what he's able to see during the procedure and that we won't be waiting for answers too long.  I'm hopeful.

My stressors are colliding and it's put me on edge; it's also lead me to a new-found love for running.  Okay, jogging.  Maybe even just fast walking; it's hard to say.  I've been using the Couch to 5K app on my phone and enjoy the increase in my endurance; I can run farther than ever before and look forward to completing the 9 week challenge.  There's been some chatter about registering for a 5K to celebrate; I'm not sure what the "rules" are with running and our upcoming fertility treatments.  I won't lie, I'm a little afraid that Dr. TK will tell me not to run.  I'd be okay with walking, but the rush after running is totally different.  I'm physically too exhausted to worry or feel anxious and that's the best part.

By the time Wednesday morning arrives, I will (hopefully) have less stress in my life.

We'll see about that.

xoxo

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