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4 weeks (woot. woot.)

Dear Nugget,
You're nestled into my lining and making yourself comfortable.  Your daddy and I would much appreciate if you stayed with us; we are so eager to meet you and to begin this journey with you.  I still can't believe that our first IVF cycle worked.  I had my first blood test on Thursday and Vernita called to tell me that I am "SO pregnant."  You are the answer to a much repeated, much desired prayer.  I can't feel you yet, but just knowing that you're there and that you're mine makes me so incredibly happy.  We haven't told your grandparents yet; we're waiting for the right time -- and a new picture of you to share!  I have another blood test on Monday and if that's okay, we'll get to see you the following week!  I am on pins and needles (thankfully no more injections) waiting to hear your heart beat.  I just want to know you're safe and happy in your momma.  I'm so eager to see you, hear you, feel you, touch you, all the joys that come with being your mom.  I'm also terrified by what this means for your daddy & I as we will be making big changes to our lifestyle to prepare for you and to raise you.  

How far along? 4 weeks
Total weight gain: 0 (some days it's negative!)
Maternity clothes?  Not yet, but I'm lazy and am TOTALLY open to them.
Stretch marks?  Not yet? 
Sleep: Decent sleep though I occasionally have to get up to pee!
Best moment this week: Hearing V's voice when she called with our results, "You are SO pregnant."
Miss anything?  Beer.  Sushi.  Jumping on trampolines... 
Food cravings: Nothing really
Anything making you queasy or sick? No
Gender: Waaaay too early to tell, we're just happy there's a baby in there ;)
Labor signs: Hahaha, so n/a
Symptoms: headaches, cramping, constantly peeing, occasional nausea, some bloating
Belly button in or out?  In (and the idea of it popping scares the shit out of me -- I also fear my scar will burst open and my guts will fall out... rational, I know)
Wedding rings on or off: On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Mostly happy, lots of anxiety about financially preparing for this huge life change :)
Looking forward to: second beta test on Monday & scheduling our first ultrasound!


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