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As I approach 36 weeks, I have this deep appreciation for the journey that has brought us to this point in the pregnancy.  Yes, I am uncomfortable 80% of the time, but with every ache and pain (and onset of heartburn), I am reminded of how long it took to get here and how fortunate we are that we're here now.

People have said that I'm very laid back and a "low maintenance pregnant lady" (that was my mom) and I truly believe it's because I've been given this amazing opportunity.  I am someone's mommy!  And Porch is someone's daddy!  And we're finally getting the opportunity to raise someone!  We're not going to sleep ever again and we're completely okay with that.

I am very aware of how fortunate we are that IVF worked for us the first time, that we are weeks away from welcoming our daughter to our family.  I continue to think of those who are still trying to add to their family and hope that they too will someday know the joyous aches and pains that come with the victory of beating infertility.

Infertility, though more common than I ever realized, is lonely.  Even when surrounded by those who love you and pray for you, those who you connect with on a personal level via the blog network... even when you find success, the early days are filled with doubt and worry.  Infertility never leaves you.

So tonight, my thoughts and hopes are with those who continue to fight to add to their families, however that might happen (IUI, IVF, embryo adoption, adoption, foster children, etc).

xoxo



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  1. I love this post and feel exactly the same. I can't tell you how many times I've been told how happy I've looked the entire pregnancy. It's because I am. I don't complain (even though there is plenty to complain about) because I know what a gift this is. I see friends post things on facebook complaining of how tired they are, how their feet hurt, etc, and I have no sympathy. It's all how you handle it and complaining to a woman who had to do IVF to get pregnant isn't going to get you anywhere! They couldn't walk a mile in my shoes! :) We were lucky for our 1st IVF to work as well and I can't wait to meet our little one in a little over a week!

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